* E.M.O. *

Hi readers!

actually, i think i was trying my best to think optimistic recently.

dropping tears became my hobby?

LoL.

i guess nobody likes to cry.

but undoubtedly, i cried at least once a week.

is it that i need to grow more maturely so that i can overcome all the problem without dropping any tears?

first and foremost, i wanna make thing clear that i m not unappreciative with my current life,

but i have many things to worry about.

my family, especially my grandma.

she is one of my responsibility.

she takes care of me since i was born into this world.

i m thankful bcoz my grandma never feel that i m her burden but she feel proud bcoz of me.

she was 60 years old when i was born.

so now, she is 80 years one while i m just 21 years old.

i owez hate myself for being so young still, i have many things that i cant do for her.

i wish that i could bring her travel all over the world,

i wish that i could bring her to every place she wants to,

i wish that i could bring her taste every food in this world,

and i wish that i could make her happy everyday!

but, my grandma is very weak now.

she is old now,

i dun wan to miss any moment that i can spend with her.

but i hate myself, bcoz i m busy with many things.

i m not likes a normal student,

they can study and play without worrying anything,

but me,

i really cant focus only on a student life,

for me,

grandma is the most important one in my life!!!

i love u, ah po~~~