* the so-called letter *

first of all,,
wat i wan to clarify is tat i m expressing out my feelings and point of views...
so... no offense pls...
and... no comment pls...
bcoz the war had been ended...
well, let me start this "essay" now...
i had a fren who quite close v me since i was f4...
she was a good going, kind, frenly, caring, loving and other positive behavior and attitude in my heart...
definitely, she was occupying a place in my heart, and she was my best fren...
but after i had been came back from melacca for matriculation program...
i found out things had changed...
i slowly realized her changing attitude and behavior...
some told me this is she and she used to have this attitude and behavior since last time...
i dun really clear and know bout tat, bcoz when we were f4 and f5, we were close and we were enjoying our life together...
BUT... there is smth that i have to admit...
she is really changed from positive attitude to negative attitude...
but things went worse when she denied all these and kept in her mind set...
the one who changed not her...
but we did... LOL...
if we were the ones who changed, why now u made the things worsen??
why i say like this??
bcoz now u made everyone of us have negative sight towards u...
yet i never push anyone to support me...
i m jz sharing and telling the truth to my frens...
is this also considered our fault??
no matter u wan to admit or deny, pls accept it with open heart...
perhaps i did said out something and might hurt u...
but at that time, i was on fire...
when u angry that time, i believe tat u wil say smth wrong also rite??
not onli u, but most of us wil make the same mistakes...
so if i could turn the time bek...
i wil calm myself down from being get hurt of ur words...
but now, time cant turn bek and facts are facts...
i apologize for all those msgs i sent to via sms...
but, can u pls stop insulting me and keep on showing my msg to others??
bcoz they are not in the case and they never involved in this war...
they can be jz ur listener...
and they never had the rights to judge this situation...
since they never knew wat had happened behind the scene...
ya, perhaps u are the best actress ever...
u like to act pity...
u are acting all the times...
u are so fake to us...
tis is wat i most cant stand...
and why did i decide to end this war??
isn't bcoz of bf!!
I REPEAT, THIS WAR HAPPENED AND THIS FRENSHIP ENDED ISN'T BCOZ OF BF STAFF!!
i never deny or push the situation to other side...
since the beginning of this war also isn't caused by bf staff...
i dun care how ur bf treat u yet i dun care u want to compare ur bf to my bf...
bcoz i m satisfied with wat i own now...
well, let me make thing clear...
this war begined and this frenship end is becaused of YOU!!
you~yourself...
do u know urself well??
u used to be a good fren to me, but it was LAST TIME...
the real you, the you for now or to be present, u are a faker!!
bcoz of u are a faker. i decided to end our frenship..
why i say u are a faker??
of coz i m not childish wan to say u are a faker without reasons...
the reasons supporting me to describe u as a faker are:
1st, u like to complain ppl while u act to be close and fren to the ppl... agree?
2nd, u like to say ppl bek instead of talk to that ppl... ( dun put blame to me as u raise things out and talk but i decided to end frenship.. bcoz when u raise the problem out, it had been too late... do u know why?? bcoz i had known smth tat u did it to me... it is u say me dun wan help u when ur car got problem behind me while i trying my best ti help u... and u say me never gv u advise and take it as not my problem behind me while actually i m gving comment but jz those ideas are not the answer u expected... )
3rd, u can act to be close or fren to a ppl although u dun like him or her...
4th, why u use ur bf fb send msg to my bf?? why u must block my bf after send fb msg to apologize to my bf?? all those actions u took were actually self-contradictory...
5th, u like to cover up ur beh syok-ness while forcing urself to mix v ppl u dun like to mix...
6th, u like to take benefits from others ( like the time u sprain ur leg, u came out have drink v us jz bcoz of u need somebody to drop u at usm but not bcoz of wan to have fun v us)
7th, u like to add some flavors to a situation... ( like everytime when u convey smth, u wil definitely add salt or add vinegar or talk in the ways u feel comfortable )
i wil write all these out jz bcoz of i und u... try to accept these...
or i shouldn't write so mucj on these, bcoz this is ur business!! LOL~~~
anyway, can u pls think bout it b4 u putting blame to others??
can u pls self-criticism b4 u critic someone??
can u pls be awaken and stop being a faker??
besides this, i frankly dun like ur attitude as u like to show off...
do u realize tat this is a bad attitude instead??
jimui or good fren or best buddy is not the one who keep on showing off to us...
we share our great things but not in the way of showing off...
we wont jealous yet envy...
this will oli make ppl have bad impression toward u...
and all those good advises i gave to u in those sms aren't the advises came out from my heart...
BUT ALL THOSE ADVISES ARE WAT U OWEZ TELL US...
do u still rmb??
well well well, i m writting too much...
as i dun think all these real advises will be accepted by u...
bcoz u have a narrow heart...
for this incident, i never cried...
until now i m writing this "letter"...
my tears never dropped...
not bcoz of i dun care or not bcoz of my heart strong...
jz bcoz of i never did smth sorry to her...
then why she cried??
bcoz of she likes to act or her heart weak or she did smth wrong??
i really dunno~~~
now, i m writting out all these is not to worsen our problem...
i m jz hoping all these msgs can be reaching u and make ur mind awake...
if i m treating u as an enemy, i wont do all these...
i wil jz dun care wat u post in fb...
but i really dun agree v wat u did...
is it fun to insult ppl as a dog??
is it fun to blame other ppl instead of think bout urself??
is it fun to post all those childish things in fb??
is it fun to act pity in front of others??
is it really fun when u stare at me while u telling ppl i glare at u??
pls think bout it!!
and i hope, this "letter" wil officially declare to the end of this war... thanks...